Feeling God ... or like God?

First I would like to say hello to the blogger world b/c I haven't made a post since .... a really long time! LoL! Life as you know it has been extremly crazy lately and I just haven't found time or the strength to write something until now!

I recently have been having trouble with a friend that I have been "amigos" with since I can remember. To be exact I'm not really even sure when we met ... but I have a pretty good guess. Lately she hasn't been holding her end up of the the friendship rope. I've been there for her for everything that's she's been through. Her back surgeries (she's had 3), her boyfriends (to many to count, but she got out a serious relationship in the summer of 16 months and 2 weeks), her parents divorce (that was rough b/c my dad was deployed that year) but through all this I would push aside my problems to cater to hers b/c that's what friends are for. Well recently I've had my own problems and I've needed a soft spot to land somedays but it seemed like the more I would ask if I could rest on her the harder she got. We had just started to patch things up when she calls and says "I want to go out to dinner with you tomorrow. I need to talk to you!" and I said "ok how bout 6:00 Firehouse Subs" she says "great I'll see you then." It was set we where actually going to get together like two human beings (this would be the first time we've done something together since Novemer 2, 2005). I get a call today from my firend saying I have to go into work but I'll call you after. Well, since I went up to the YMCA to work out I figured I would just wait on her to get through coaching. I go and wait for her where she parks her car ... and it's not there. So I call her mom b/c if she is at work and her cell phone go's off she'll get in trouble. Her mom informs me that she's over at another friends house and that she should be home shortly. So me being the rational person I am I go over to the friends house where she is and I don't stop, I don't say anything to her, I just drive. And I relize ... she's lied to me (incase no one caught that yet ;-) } I also have the incapacity to stay angry with someone for more the 3 seconds (which doesn't help me out alot in these situations) Have you ever had that one person that NO MATTER what they did you ALWAYS forgave them. But you also know how bad it did hurt when they did whatever it was they did. And yet you still forgave them anyway? I wonder if that's how God feels everytime we do something like this. He loves us SO much that he's willing to forgive and forget whatever we did, but that it still might hurt him? That's kind of like how I felt tonight I love this kid so much that I'm will to forgive and forget almost anything but it still hurts. So I think we should all say "Thanks" to the big guy upstairs! (Just because he's that cool!)

P.S. Happy Valentines Day ~!~